When Life Flashes Before Your Eyes.

Drowning... Have you ever wondered what it would be like? It has been on my mind for days now. I have always thought that maybe it would be one of the most painful deaths. Then I kept thinking and I remembered all the NCIS shows I had watched and could only think that it was the most humane. When I first thought about it I remembered the first time I went swimming with my family. How I tried to swim but couldn't. I started sinking down and my lungs felt like they were burning from the inside out. But, within the time of sinking I was able to remember almost every good thing that had ever happened to me. My life literaly flashed before my eyes.

When I Least Expected

Rewriting and rewriting to make thoughts seem perfect because they pour out to quickly for you to grasp. But, when moving quickly nothing can be perfect.... and yes that includes relationships. But that is the least of our problems it is when history repeats itself that it raises a problem. For me history seemed to repeat itself 10 times and for all the same reasons and has ended for all the same reasons. You think just because you tell yourself things will be different they actually will, but in the end they always end up the same. Or in my case exactlly the same and when I least expected it.